My First Born - Goldy Locks

She was absolutely gorgeous! Still is, despite what she says. Curly, golden hair, shimmery, expressive green eyes and (when she lets it out) a beautifully designed smile.

She always had this shyness to her and that lead her to lean on me so much over the years. The divorce was for a higher cause but it broke us all. When it happened I unconsciously distanced myself from the children. I was unable to deal with my own pain and became more and more unavailable for them. I was unaware of that.

She has been needing me during the hardest years of her life, where change was unavoidable and barely manageable, and I have pushed her away. I could not cope. I hope she will find some way to forgive me later. I will certainly try to catch up.

As she crosses through her teenage years, I am witnessing her growing into a strong and independent woman. She matured so fast that sometimes we swap places and she grounds me right down to my place. It's embarrassing really...

"Baby, don't ever change. For anybody. Ignore what I tell you unless you can use it. Don't be afraid to be yourself. The world is too busy being selfish to care about other people. You know you will always be loved and that I will always have your back. I am flat out lying when I say that I won't be there forever, 'cause I will."