Cracking on

It’s about time I get back on track with my studies as well, so decided to log in to my CMP (College of Media and Publishing) account to resume from where I left off. This is the problem of taking up a course online. It's handy that you can study at any time from anywhere but unless you have a study buddy, you are confronted with your own self-discipline, in an already demanding daily life.

My idea to use my Sundays as stepping stones in my personal (and professional) development was exactly to pace myself down. I was finding myself being pulled into this vicious cycle of showing up and engaging with one and all. This not only doesn't help me move forward but it is also leaving me feeling manipulated. Enough.

I had to put a stop to it all. I know what I want and I am determined to achieve it. And I don't need (nor do I want to waste my precious time) subject to all this current stream of pressure to subscribe to people that know as much or less than I do. I can be better on my own.

The writing courses are widening my professional view, as I resume it and work on my personal re-discovery journey. Sundays are my days of choice to move forward. To switch off all distractions, to close all other tabs that can prompt any notification. Because once I start opening one, it's like with cherries: after that one comes another.

This doesn’t mean that I will not try and get anything I enjoy done during the week, but I’m conscious it is hard to commit to specific times. I should be happy with whatever time I get non-Sunday. Particularly now, under the imminence of moving house (any moment now), we are on our toes with planning our next moves, to make sure it all goes smoothly for all four of us. One eye on the email alerts, another on the routine. Shopping list at the ready, under Pinterest consultations and a lot of Googling for interesting decoration ideas. It’s non-stop.

This week, I have been reading my borrowed Happier book, by Derren Brown, before bed. I also had to go back to my parenting Teen Triple P course book (to refresh), and am actually going through the exercises, although they need an upgrade. I need to refresh my teenage relationship management ideas. The constant friction is just too much. You can read more about it in my latest family post.

But it feels good to be back at it, even though it’s still sometimes hard to get to that point. Life is constantly trying to get in my way… But I’m fighting back. You wait and see.