Dad was around

So he decided to show his face. Yes, I forgave him for what he has done to me so I could move on with my life. But I still rant at all the injustice. It's not like I don't see it happening. Moderation has never been his forte. Whether it is with his drinking or with his narcissistic character.

I would like to know what goes through his amazing brain when he thinks about his children. He doesn't make any contribution whatsoever ro their lives. I mean, in the beginning I used to remind the kids of Father's day, of his birthday, but they speak so little and he has so little involvement in their lives that they just don't care. Can I blame them?

Since we parted ways back in 2017, he has paid little over £500 to support them. How far does he think I could go with the misery he never intended to pay? Would I run away and live the kids to fend for themselves which, like he did? Do mums act the same way, if the children choose (or the law decides that is right) for them to live with their dad? No conscience or common sense? No awareness that their children (and their needs) keep growing after the separation? All we have ever seen so far was delays, postponements, promises and excuses. He's an expert at that.

He decided to come over to see his other half, who apparently spends six months here and the other six months there (but he can't afford child maintenance). Came and arranged with Charlotte to spend some time with them and that's fine. He took them to Nando's for lunch and gave them £100 each, in cash (no exchange rates there, for sure). I obviously wouldn't ask for that money because it was given to them as a gift, so it was for them to decide what they wanted to do with it, even if I didn't agree. Wouldn't you?

Meanwhile:

• Food

• School uniform

• School meals

• School trips

• Extra curricular clubs (i.e. guitar lessons, scouts)

• Medical expenses i.e. counselling, dental

• all the other extras (oh yes, there is more)

No government support, no tax credits, only hard work. He doesn't even have the decency to ask if they need anything.